The Confusion of a Devoted & Desperate Housewife
On one day this month he started acting distant. I could tell because he was very abrupt and didn’t seem to want to be around me. I decided to confront him and he hit me with the ‘this isn’t working anymore’ spiel.
Now this, in itself, wasn’t too shocking. My husband and I go through this dance together: my long-term depression and anxiety versus his bipolar, uber-stubborn (stubborn being that he sees his experiences and feelings as the right way). Every 2-3 years one of us throws our hands up in the air and says to the other that things have to change. It gets fixed temporarily and then the cycle repeats.
This time, though he’s talking possible divorce. He says he’s not cheating but he’s definitely not happy and hasn’t been for most of our marriage.
Ummmm….what?
Now I am not placing all the blame on my husband. I take full responsibility for my parts of our relationship that aren’t healthy. But, I had no idea he was feeling the possibility of divorce.
I am in shock as this one was unexpected. We were doing great, enjoying it all and then ‘bam’ possible separation.
So now we are in this limbo phase of ‘discovery’ and figuring out if we want to continue our marriage.
It’s shocking but not all at the same time. Maybe this possible outcome was inevitable?
